Sunday, July 3, 2011

Scandinavian Movies, Tattoos and Girls Named Noomi

I'm a sucker for girls with tattoos *cut to my lovely Mandy* and for girls in punk gear (I still think of Trini Alvarado and Robin Johnson in Times Square, back in the day) so it was no surprise that I thought The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo was awesome.






I liked the somber, appropriately lit scenes with a building story line that was thrilling. It's supposed to be a thriller, after all. I thought Noomi Rapace and Michael Nyqvist were excellent. It was so Scandinavian.

I was excited to see the other two movies that make up the Millennium trilogy. I wanted to like them so much, but they are just terrible and it had nothing to do with Noomi or Michael.

It seems that they switched directors for the last two, This new hack thought he was doing Die Hard sequels or something. Clearly, he wants to move to Hollywood.

I wonder what David Fincher will do with the actual Hollywood version of The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo. Mandy is excited. I'm just waiting to see Noomi on the next Sherlock Holmes movie. In the meantime, I'm up for a trip to Ikea.

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Sunday, June 26, 2011

The Beatles

I guess everyone has some sort of story about how they were introduced to The Beatles, from watching them on the Ed Sullivan show to being introduced to them by parents. Well, here it's my story.


In 1978, my siblings and I arrived to the US. My mom had been here a year and my dad three or so. We were at the mercy of the Immigration and Naturalization Services, and that's how things work sometimes for immigrants to the US.

As soon as we got here we wanted to be just American kids. Despite learning English very quickly, my accent was, and is, a dead give away that I'm not a native American. Each of my siblings have less and less of an accent depending on the age they were when we arrived. Since I'm the oldest, my speech patterns had been more set as was my tastes and attitudes.

I was a 13 year old that was crazy about football, soccer for you natives, poetry, clothes, math and science. That didn't translate well to a world that saw soccer in the same light as the metric system or where early teen boys that spend time memorizing poetry were effeminate. The culture also put down those of us inclined to math and science as geeks, nerds or worse yet terribly uncool. I'm glad to say that in the years since, some of those things have changed for the better.

My siblings and I spent months trying to figure out how we could recast ourselves to fit in. To figure out this crazy country we spent hours and hours watching TV. To me it was no diversion, it was cramming. We caught up on The Brady Bunch, Gilligan's Island and every cliched show from the 60s and 70s.

Once enrolled in school, I noticed that kids in my school grouped themselves by ethnicity, culture but more importantly music tastes. I couldn't fake my way into the Disco/R&B crowd. While many Latinos were in the group, I was much too white. Also, I didn't understand what the weird repetitive talking over songs was about. Later I realized that I had seen early hip-hop, I just didn't get it.

I tried to fit in with the Latinos who were into salsa. My countrymen and all other Latinos found me lacking for I knew nothing about their music and surprisingly even less about their culture. Why? That is a totally different blog, but let's say that socio-economic reasons matter much more in Colombia than they do in the US. It was as if I came from a different place from most of them.

For weeks, I affected various regional accents trying to find one that they'd accept. That failed. I tried to fit in with the Dominicans, the Boricuas, the Argentines but I was too "white," I was told. I didn't understand what being too white meant in that context. Many of the Latinos were just as white as the Greek, Italians and Jews that made up much of the impenetrable white boy camp. I tried to be one of the white kids, anyway. I still didn't fit there but at last I did make a sort of friend, Charlie.

Charlie was an awkward chubby half-Pole, half-Irish kid. He was a redhead and was the pinkiest person I had ever met. We shared a history class together. We sat next to each other in the back of the room. While everyone gave our teacher, a first year 20-something girl, a hard time, Charlie and I chatted away about this and that. He liked that he finally had someone to talk to and I liked that he wasn't puzzled about who or what I was.

One of his favorite topics was The Beatles. Of course, I knew who they were. I had heard their music for as long as I had been alive. Up until that point it was just background noise to me. I had never paid much attention to them. Charlie's fascination was contagious. I started thinking about what I knew about The Beatles.

My earliest memory of The Beatles was my mom listening to Rubber Soul sometime in '68 or '69. I remember looking at the record cover and thinking about how odd were the elongated faces of the four boys. Yet, I had very little recollection of the music.

I brought Charlie's stories home and somehow, I don't remember how but perhaps my sisters may remember, a copy of the Red and Blue Albums arrived at our apartment. Just like the TV shows, my siblings and I began to listen to these records obsessively. Quickly we picked our favorite songs. Strangely, my sisters and I decided we each had to pick a different Beatle to like too.

I chose Paul, while my sisters chose John and George. My brother, who was 5 at the time, was assigned to Ringo. He didn't seem to mind; then again I think he was too busy with his Rubber Ducky to worry about it. I have thought about this for a long time and have noted that our choices were very evident of who we were or wanted to be. I was "a poet" and preferred sappy sentiment, just like Paul. I still love Paul and while I'll admit he was the lamest of The Beatles, without him they would have never gone anywhere.


Quickly, we bought copies of Beatles albums; my sisters favoring the earlier stuff, while I focused on the later stuff. The Beatles opened a flood gate that changed how we became to fit in, or in many cases how we chose not to fit in, in our new country. More current music was purchased, first in hit collections from "As Seen On TV" advertisers and quickly replaced by albums from people like Steve Windwood to David Bowie.

The introduction, or re-introduction, of The Beatles to our home sent all four of us into a love affair with popular music that continues to this day. We moved from one genre to another, quickly cramming just like we did with TV. As the 80s came to being, we settled on an eclectic mix of everything from country to German techno.

Just as the popular culture at large, there are so many things that are important to me that I attribute back to The Beatles. Without The Beatles I may have become a fan of Man U. That would be awful. I don't know if The Beatles ever followed football or if they were Everton or Liverpool fans, but I'm a huge Liverpool FC supporter because of them. George's interest in Eastern Religion was a catalyst for my interest in the subject and my very flimsy Buddhist leanings. Paul's vegetarianism was in a small part one of the reasons I tried it. Sixteen years later I'm still a vegetarian.


We can debate whether the Fab Four were real Mods or not, but because of them I like to say I'm one too. At a minimum, I like Mod music and Mod aesthetic.

Finally, The Beatles made me into a life-long Anglophile. Please don't think that means I love the Royals or that I like Simon Cowell. It simply means that given the chance I prefer English things. Their telly is many times better, at least their comedies. They have better sports, although a multi-day cricket test sounds more boring that a baseball series. They have Tories so they are as idiotic as we are with the GOP. Not even England can be perfect.

As for Charlie, we attended the same school for four more years. I'd see him in the hallway from time to time and we'd smile and say hello. The last time I saw him was at our High School graduation. I think of him rarely, but I'm glad we crossed paths. I wonder what ever happened to him.

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Location:In Bed

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Confessional

I must come clean. It has been decades building. I'm ashamed of it, for some unclear reason. Perhaps because I have fancied myself as a hard edge sort of fellow.

I spent years in the early eighties following the NYC hardcore punk scene. I was there when the Beastie Boys forsook hardcore and embraced hip hop. I was at the show when Rachel played with them for the last time -- Yes, the Beasties once had a female member. I was there when GBH played and halfway through the show The Ramones walked in and the band stopped playing to pay homage to the gods of punk. I was there at a Dead Kennedys show when Neo-Nazi skins were beaten when they dared boo Jello during "Nazi Punks Fuck Off."

So what is this that I have come to terms with? I've come to realize that my all-time favorite band is Depeche Mode. Yes, that Depeche Mode. There is no denying my LastFM scrobbles. Far and away they are the artist I listen to the most.

It's true I have everything they have ever recorded including every single, remix, b side, etc. That in itself is a testament to what I think of them. Then again I have the full discography of acts that I don't listen to that often; David Bowie comes to mind.

So why Depeche Mode? Seriously, I don't completely know. There are artists that I love everything they do like Esthero, Morrissey, Jack White, Franz Ferdinand, Arctic Monkeys and Paul Weller. But with the exception of Esthero, there are months where I just don't listen to them. I always seek out Depeche Mode.

They have always been written off as a synth-pop example of 80s excess. I find them to be brilliant; the opinion of my beloved Mandy not withstanding. Their lyrics are more profound than most people think -- perhaps because the continuing struggles with drug abuse. Their music is down right catchy. It doesn't hurt that they are inspiration to groups like Ladytron and Datarock, which I love; not to mention a slew of Goth bands the world over. I do admit loving Goth sensibilities while finding them contrived at the same time.

After reading gobs and gobs of Buddhist books from Thich Nhat Hanh to Ram Dass, and from time to time even spending time meditating, DM's "Get the balance right" is still my favorite explanation of the middle way. Did they even mean it that way? I don't know and I don't particularly care.

I gotta get back to the DM Barcelona Concert I'm watching while on a plane heading to New Orleans; "Drive" is coming on. "Oh little girl there are times that I feel I'd rather not be the one behind the wheel..."

Another learning, it's hard to dance in a small plane seat while your love is next to you reading a serious book.

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Location:Flying somewhere over America

Saturday, May 14, 2011

iPad Crazy

Last time I wrote about the iPad and I wondered if I should get an iPad 2. It seems that the gods of Apple (would that be Jobs?) are always smiling at me.

In an unconceivable stroke of luck, I have once again won an iPad and this time it is of the 2.0 version. It was at one of those booths where you drop your business card into the bowl and snicker since there is no way you'll ever win. Well, I guess I'll stop snickering now.

Should I now be ready to win an iPad 3, when that comes out?

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Sunday, January 2, 2011

Why would I want an iPad?

When iPads were first introduced I had a hardy laugh. I'm not a Luddite. In fact, I'm more of an early adopter (I learned that in bidness school). However, the idea of having an oversized iPod Touch just didn't make sense to me.

I heard people were planning to replace their laptops with iPads. "How could that be possible?" I thought. After all they cannot multi-task and the largest one only has 64 gigs of memory. That won't even hold all of my 24,000 songs that are in my beloved "Pedro Pablo," (That is my iPod Classic with 160 gigs) not to mention the several movies, albums of photographs, few books on audio and a slew of music videos.

I started seeing the iPad commercials and had to agree that the folks at Apple did something right. As always, the slick lines and the simplicity of the design called to me. Still, there was no reason for me to have yet another standalone Apple device. Aside from Pedro Pablo, there is the shuffle, Bernabe, that I use during runs and the new iPhone, Diego.

In October, I attended a conference that had a mix of business people, technologists, some developers and the financial press. There I saw the new toy being used by a large number of people. As I sat next to a gentleman from CNN Money, tapping away at his screen, I felt envious. Meekly, I pulled out Diego and typed some items into my "notes" app. It just wasn't the same. He then clicked on his Twitter icon and began to tweet about the conference.

I looked over at my former boss sitting next to me. He's far from a gadget guy, despite being the CTO. He was also looking at the oversized iTouch longingly. At the next break, he called his assistant. Later, I found out that he asked her to order two iPads; one for him and one for his Head of IT, "to test out."

I made it out of the convention and back home. However, I did pester Mandy with my sighs every time an iPad was shown on TV. I told her I really didn't want one. What would be the point? She agreed and brought up the lack of memory, multi-tasking. We didn't want one. We stood united.

A couple of weeks ago, I got a call from a consulting firm. I had participated in an industry survey, which had as an enticement to participate a chance to win an iPad. "Congratulations, Alex you won the iPad," a woman said to me. What iPad? When did I sign up for this?

And yet a few days later, there it sat on the kitchen table. I resisted opening the box for a whole day. What better way to prove to me, and more importantly to Mandy, that I didn't really want one. I opened it, played with it for a little while.

I downloaded the Kindle app; no need to buy a Kindle now. I downloaded the Zinio app; time to get rid of paper magazines. I downloaded EA Sports' latest versions of Tiger Woods, FIFA and Madden, all for less than $15 dollars; good bye X-Box. I downloaded the New York Times app. I never buy the paper, but now I'm actually reading it. I found myself ignoring my laptop and only turning it on to sync iTunes.

During a trip to Nevada, which I'm still on, I watched a couple of movies I had bought for a few dollars in iTunes. I guess I may not need a DVD player either.

I carry the iPad to work intending to use it as a note pad. I have yet to do it, but that is more of a testament to my awful note taking than anything.

Now Mandy wants one too. Should we wait for the iPad 2?

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Location:Somewhere over Oklahoma

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Tus Pies

Leyendo a Neruda
Pense de tus pies
La silueta de ellos
De lado a lado

Como se sienten
Cuando enlazamos
En uno, estamos
Me sorprendes

Me tocas despacio
Deliberado, rapido
Otras manos
Lejanas se sienten

Descalzada caminas
En la casa
Pies coquetos
Decorados con flores



Brillantes en sol
Fuertes bajo
Piernas torneadas
Manteniendo estatua

Dedos juguetones
Capriciosos mueven
Bailan directando
Orquestra silencia

Beso tus pies
Piedad enamorada
Espiritual casi
Para un ateo

Me encuentro
Embrujado a verlos
Las flores bajo
Mi Helena majica

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Surrender

If I breathe
too quickly, will you disappear
If I breathe
too slow, will I scare you away

I tempt fate
every time I feel the warmth
of you next to me
and I let myself bask in it

When I let myself
hold you too tight
am I taunting the past
and setting myself up

Looking away
I lose you briefly
Are you there
Has my dream gone

If my heart beats
will the sound eat you
If my heart beats
will the thunder scare you

I reach out
and grab your hand
do you notice
how surprised I am

When I say
that I love you again
do you believe
or have I tired you

Seeing you
walking towards me
my face betrays
and a smile grows

If I wake
will the butterflies fly
If I wake
will the cushion yield

I tremble
with the single thought
that a dream
it has been

When I grasp
for your curves
they yield to
my longing touch

Realizing it
that it’s true
I awake and
surrender to you